1.03.2003
Changes
I've been changing my blogspot up a little bit. The first thing you will see on the page each day will be the first thing I posted that day. And, the further down you read, the later on in the day I posted what you are reading.
I also tossed in a few favorite links. Enjoy, if you don't know about them already.
1/03/2003 08:22:00 PM
Another test...ignore me, again.
1/03/2003 08:12:00 PM
Color Test
Needs warm companionship, but is intolerant of anything short of special consideration from those close to her. If this is not forthcoming, is liable to shut herself away from them.
Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, she pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things. Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming agitated and of exhausting her nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and feels she can only be at peace when she has finally reached her goal.
Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left her listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied her
Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.
Conditions are such that she will not let herself become intimately involved without making mental reservations.
Needs recognition. Ambitious, wants to impress and be looked up to, to be both popular and admired. Seeks to bridge the gap which she feels separates her from others.
Afraid that she may be prevented from achieving the things she wants and therefore demands that others should recognize her right to them.
Take the quiz!
1/03/2003 07:46:00 PM
More Emode.com: Ghost
You're a fun loving prankster, always with a joke up your sleeve. That's why your monster match is a ghost. Your bag has more tricks than treats, but you can take it as well as you can dish it out. You're a witty spirit who loves a good hoot, and echoing laughter like you'd hear in the halls of a haunted house. Part ghoul, part Beetlejuice, you are the ghost with the most, the phattest phantom, a real graveyard smash.
Whether you're going to a costume party or throwing your own [party], you mingle with different social groups as if walking through walls. But you ghosts take care. You love getting a good behind-the-door scare almost as much as you love giving them, but those with bad tickers and tempers might not appreciate your spooky sense of humor. Use your inner poltergeist sparingly and you'll never have to worry about getting "busted."
Are You Evil?
Good for you, you're human. We all have evil thoughts, and you may have acted on a few of yours, but you're probably okay traveling through Buffy's turf. Or maybe you're an aspiring evil person and you've never given yourself a real chance. Go ahead and forgive yourself for the mean-spirited — but ultimately harmless — pranks you pulled in grade school. Whispering behind your co-workers' backs won't flood you with bad karma. And we've all held out for ourselves in the throes of passion a time or two. So keep listening to that conscience of yours, but don't worry about tuning it out every so often. Keep reading for more evil details!
Don't feel too bad about hiding your anger. At least, not right now. When your spleen ruptures from internalized stress, then you can feel bad about it. Passive people act that way because they're ultimately sweet and don't want to upset anyone. While that may work for the short term, you end up looking like a real back-stabber when you, ah, stab someone in the back. Try to deal with your problems up front, and you probably won't have to renew your concealed weapons permit this year.
Your heart's a little dark, but your kindness makes up for any evil deeds (except for that stunt you pulled in elementary school — yes, that one — tsk, tsk, that was pure wickedness). But you can forgive yourself for coming off as a meanie, because if you were 100 percent sweet, you wouldn't be normal. So continue being considerate of others, and remember — when you get cut off in traffic, it's okay to give the finger every once in awhile.
What Celebrity matches you?
Dylan McDermott
Order in the court! Yeah, we mean you. We know it's exciting that Practice hottie Dylan McDermott is your celebrity match, but for heaven's sake, calm down. After all, the TV lawyer may be tall, dark, handsome, smart, suave... Actually, on second thought, woo hoo! Celebrate all you want; this brainy babe (and ex-fiancé of Julia Roberts) is exactly the right kind of guy for you — you love men who sweep you off your feet with their words, not just their biceps. We can just picture the two of you on a date: candlelight, a vintage wine, a deep discussion about literature or foreign film. Definitely swoon-worthy. He may be married (and a daddy!) in real life, but in the TV show in your head, we the jury find that this bright East Coast hunk is all yours.
1/03/2003 06:30:00 PM
A part of Emode.com
Ginny, did you know you are 8,172 days old?
Ginny, you're a Poet!
Your personality is actually determined by two personality sub-types - your primary, or dominant sub-type, and your secondary sub-type. You are a Poet which means you are a Thinker / Golden. Your primary sub-type is defined by "Thinker" characteristics and your secondary sub-type is defined by "Golden" characteristics.
That means you're complex and artistic with a rich inner life. Chances are you're a bit shy and quiet, and you enjoy peaceful, comfortable environments. You're an interesting person to know, full of insights and inspiration, even though you're sometimes hesitant to express them.
How do we know all this? How do we know that you enjoy intense one-on-ones or small, intimate dinner parties? Or that you might not make friends all that easily, but that you relish the ones you have? How could we have divined that you don't like to juggle too much at work and can get stressed out by major job upheavals?
1/03/2003 06:25:00 PM
How do people see you?
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So What's Going on with Ginny?
I want to cry. I want to scream. I want someone to talk to.
Last night, I was talking to Shaun. Tried to draw him out, verbally, or something, I guess. I just wanted to know that we were connecting somehow like we usually do. It didn't seem like we were. In a small sense, I wanted to feel like I mattered, I guess...
I know everyone has a lot of problems right now, whatever they may be. And part of me wants to listen, to be the proverbial shoulder to cry on, even if I can't give any good advice. Part of me wants to shove everyone away like a bratty little baby and just run far far away, away from everything I've ever grew up with.
A huge chunk of this is about my mom. She's decided that she's clinically depressed, and she's being self destructive, in a manner of speaking. I used to be able to cheer her up, but now I can't. The things we used to be able to joke about, gossip about, whatever and whatnot--whatever it was, I could always see her face light up for an instant. That instant, no matter how short or long, was always enough to tell me there was still hope in the world.
And I feel the same about a lot of people (some of you reading this know exactly who you are). But to have this problem hit home, more specifically, my mom...I just don't have the strength anymore. She keeps talking about how no one loves her, how she doesn't matter to anyone, etc etc etc. I'm just so weary trying to tell her otherwise. And I have to keep playing the cheerful one, to her, to everyone I know, because it seems, to me anyway, that everyone I know is depressed. I can't be, because if I am, then there's just not hope for anyone.
But I need someone to reach out to--someone that will listen to me, let me cry on their shoulder. I'm not saying I want some to pretend happiness for me--I frown on fake-ness and illusions of that sort. I just want to know that I have a chance to share my problems, as well as hear theirs. I want to be comfortable enough to tell my problems, without fear of upsetting someone, or causing them to retaliate with, "Oh, get over it, that's nothing."
I'm just so very tired...
Work
Big fat check today. Whee. Lots of tips, so I got myself several things, games, clothes, etc. I miss that big dummy Ron. I can't stand Shannon again, for the umpteenth time, but Chad (Squishy, lol--long story) and I are getting to be good buddies. Work today sucked. My fellow server's mom died this morning...I'm numb with shock, and unsure how to tell her I care. But I was in tears with her, and I think that was enough...
Doctor
Haven't gone to see him yet. I hope I'm not getting self destructive, because I just don't feel like it. Besides, I think I'm getting better (rationalize, rationalize), so there.
1/03/2003 04:16:00 PM
1.01.2003
New Year!
I never can seem to comprehend when it's a new year. Not December anymore? Seems rather sudden, doesn't it?
About Work
Work bad. Hurt all over. More work today. Ugh. (Lots of money, though! ^^)
I spent 12 hours at work yesterday. And we weren't slammed--oh no--we reached a new level of slammed. SLAUGHTERED. I was slaughtered for those 12, everlasting hours. I brought in 1/3 of our total sales yesterday (I stood at $1800 by the end, when ToGo in one day is just $600, usually), all by myself (well, Shannon helped to pack up stuff, but you know...). I ache all over, and I get to follow it up with a 9 hour work day today. Aren't I lucky? -_-; But, in all honesty, I really am about to break overtime for real this time. Watch me be an hour (or less) shy of 40--that's my kind of luck.
Heh.
Blogspots
Some of you are in danger of losing your link on this page. I can keep saying that and keep being lazy, but I'm starting to get serious. If I do not see something new on your BlogSpot by the end of this week, I'm dropping you. Sorry.
The Online Comic thing
My pet project I've been working on ever since James from OtakuBoards asked me to make up some new summons and Final Fantasy type people. A story blossomed out of the mess of all that, and I decided I want to tell it. Kevin's offered to host it on his site, and I'm debating either going with him or finding a free website of my own (if I don't get a better offer, *lol*). Anyways, this will be a dramatic not-really-manga-but-sorta-like-it comic. I've never really done anything like this before, so we'll see how it goes. I've got to turn out some more character sheets before I start, though.
CHARACTERS (in case you are interested):
Fenris--My first one; he was based on Fenrir, the Wolf summon of FF9.
Lady Pearl--My second one; the water girl, and a dancer, besides. Inspired by the Mist dragon of FF4 and various Leviathans.
Moyra--Hot tempered female; drew her from Ifrit and the fire witch from Talking to Dragons.
Ai Hyoushou--I always wondered what Shiva would look like in society--and preferred clothed.
Flynt--From my little 8 year old brother. Fiesty kid.
Lani Mebrate--Not quite a goth, but definitely a dark character.
Alderhawn--I always wanted a centaur character. Tada. And he's based off of Ron, whee!
Reon--And I've always wanted an Auron character of sorts. Lucky me.
Carbuncle--My version of Carbuncle from the FF series. I won't say any more for fear of spoiling it.
1/01/2003 10:29:00 AM
12.30.2002
Blah blah blah
I'd bet you're surprised to see me back, huh? Well, PFFT! ^_~
Gone
Bleh, Ron and his family are in Canada until the second week of Jan. Wah... You know what's REALLY weird? Ron's wife looks almost exactly like my mom--except different colored eyes. oO
Manager Joke
I've been sick and all, and since I'm not contagious, I've had no excuse to miss work. Just miserable. XP Anyways, being sick means being cranky, and saying junk that I don't normally say. I was rowdy for a good part of Sat. night.
I remember Chad (one of my managers) was telling the other ToGo girl to behave or something. I walked up behind them, wiggled a finger at her and said, "Yeah, you know you're supposed to obey your betters, your superiors--" (here I look at Chad) "--oh, and Chad too."
Chad looked playfully shocked, then laughed.
Rondomon spans Chili's once more
Since the last time he popped up was over a year ago, when I had a DIFFERENT manager crew, the excitement over him this past week is no surprise. One of our other servers got into a "fight" with Ron about the word for hats and sleds (don't ask oO), so I drew Rondomon in one of those long, striped hats. Gave it to Ron, who stuck it on the manager computer. Now Shannon, Greg, and Chad know--and the first two are delighted to know that they already have charas after them (Shanmon and Nekomon, respectively). Chad's whining 'cause he doesn't have one yet. ^^
BTW, the list of people who DO have a ficDigi made after them include (in some sort of order of appearance):
Me--Gryfmon, Greg--Nekomon (I gave Neko to him later on, AFTER Neko was made), Mean me--Siamon, Ron--Rondmon, James--Jememon, Gundy--Cirrimon, Dumb me--Ruemon, (ok, losing order here, so random now) Brad/Dan--Brachomon, Sara--Drayomon, Shaun--Raekomon, Shannon-Shanmon...and that's all I can remember for now.
12/30/2002 10:17:00 PM
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