1.18.2003
What Anime Critter are You?
I've come to take you.
What character from a creepy anime are you?
Even Superman once worked in a team
Take the Cartoon Hero Quiz?.
I'm just watching a bad dream I'd never wake up from.
Find out what anime bad boy you are.
You're most like laid back bounty hunter.
You're the cool headed Spike. Not much gets to you...seemingly. You hold some inner pain, but you keep it hidden as best as you can. Inner pain or not, you are incredibly bad-[butt].
The deranged inner child in all of us
Find out what anime girl you are.
The deranged inner child in all of us
Although you are a computer genius, you tend to borderline on cuteness vs. pyschosis. You are energetic, and most likely people have a hard time deciding if they should hug you or slap you.
Gimme something good!
Find out what anime character cliche you are.
Gimme something good!
Innocent, energetic, and downright adorable all seem to describe you. You can get on people's nerves at times, but you're impossible not to love. You're also the most playful of the anime cliches.
*buzz*
What fuzzy creature are you?
Little Know-it-all
Find out what anime character cliche you are.
little know-it-all
You don't do any of the work, but you provide a lot of necessary information. You just walk around town shelling out advice to people who don't really seem to want it, but later on..whataya know...it comes in handy. Keep up the book learnin', because as soon as you don't know something...you're gone.
Isn't magic great!?
Find out what anime villan you are.
The Greatest Evil...Crossdresser
Find out what Cartoon villan you are.
Find out what anime series you belong in.
Goku's Blast
What's Your Anime Power?
Video-Games' first bad-ass woman.
What Video Game Hero Are You?
1/18/2003 10:54:00 PM
Everything I learned in life...
...I learned from Digimon?!?
As immature as it may seems, I picked up a few phrases from the Digimon eppies sums that I used to do for theOtaku.com
"Jeri blames herself for everything that has happened, and decides it would have been better if she had never been born....As Jeri attempts to end her life via the sock puppet, Calumon yanks it away and begs her to understand that everyone loves her very much and that she should try to believe him."
"Just think how happy you can be if you didn't work so hard to make yourself so sad." ~~words of wisdom from Calumon
"I'll get you out if it's the last thing I freaking do!....I'm trying to help you, please!" ~~Beelzemon, to a sorrowful Jeri
I echo those words, to some extent. Just because you aren't in a large, D-Reaper Bubble doesn't mean that I'm not pounding at your outer exterior, trying to figure out what's going on.
1/18/2003 08:21:00 PM
Ever wonder where you are REALLY going with life?
Heh, I've had a buttload of cabin fever descend on me (and on my first day of vacation, not good). Just kinda wondering, not so much as what's the point?, but just wondering.
College is...eh. All around me everyone else is getting somewhere, doing something. I'm still plodding along, ever slowly.
Work's turning around. Never mind the fact that I don't have to go back for a week *grins widely*. Although I'm losing a few good friends, server wise, I'm drawing closer to a few others. From the night crew, too!--*GASP* Latoya, David, and even Josh, sat around and blabbered about nothing in particular with me for an hour the other day between shifts. Something inside of me kept screaming in terror that I would goof up somehow, look stupid, and they would get up and leave in disgust. But it never happened. And I felt great!
Now if Shannon would just...
*seethes*
I do like and respect him as a person. And I thought we were getting friendly again. I keep trying to be polite to him, but all I ever see on his face these days is a frown, or other shadowed look. He doesn't laugh as much. When he does, it sounds forced. Something's up.
I told a few servers that I felt he had something against me. They told me he didn't--that they have also noticed an odd change in him. But, with him being a GM, nobody wants to cross any boundaries into WriteUp/Fired land.
I've also noticed lately that a lot of the veteran servers are getting irritated, and with good reason. A lot of laziness has been going on. And we've spoken to the managers. And they've had shift meetings. Written on the announcement boards. But nothing has changed.
So now...
If you can't change something, you walk away, right? That's why several have left. I want to pretty much leave for the same reason, except I don't really have anywhere else to go yet (I'm sure if I put my mind to it, I could easily find a place). Plus, the managers REFUSE to let me go. -_-; Perhaps Shannon is irritated because we are losing so many lunch servers. Irritated because the truth about inactiveness is finally coming to fruition.
Is it going to change how we do things around the store?
One can hope...but for some reason, I just don't think so...
AIM
...is turning out to be pretty horrid. Or it's me. I dunno. I've felt a refreshing sense of honesty burst through after my confession. And I'm just not happy on AIM anymore. Or on the Net. I've been reading a LOT about what Josh is saying right now, and I agree.
As much as I love all of you, I'm still missing something. I dunno what it is.
I do know that I've been missing a lot lately the last few nights, and for some reason...I just don't seem to...well, I wouldn't say I don't care, but I don't seem to feel much remorse. Am I living with dead feelings on the subject of AIM friends? Who knows?
But I'm not terribly close to many others. Walking out on AIM has been tried, and failed, multiple times. Plus I would be doing a great dis-service to myself if I did.
What's missing, though? I keep reading all these convos everyone else is having and I'm wondering, "Why aren't I having thoughtful discussions like this?"
Which makes me long for the days of Cera and the DigiQueen. Long, drawn out, thoughtful discussions galore.
I'm a lot more peaceful in my soul these days, but there is still something missing.
What's going on...?
1/18/2003 06:33:00 PM
1.17.2003
BTW, I still care about you.
1/17/2003 10:11:00 PM
And yet, I'm not talking about me here
I'm at a loss for words. Really.
It's a relief to know there are other emotions besides depression out there. A relief long enough to take a break from it. Until you see what's replaced it.
What I like is that my confession has prompted many others to speak up about something done to them. Or something they do to themselves. The problem is that doing so has caused several to slide deeper into depression. For a louder crying out of a craving of acceptance, recognition...or just wanting to know that others care. Do we not tell each other that they/we matter enough?
(insert your name here), if you have ever cared about me, then you know how deeply I care for you. There is no argument, despite what we may be going through right now. Hold that thought in your heart.
Strange dream
I don't remember much about it...'cept that Ron and I were supposed to be setting something up for Chili's in a downtown sort of location. And I was riding in a bike (normal, pedal bike deal), which somehow kept up with Ron's car on the freeway/highway. And I fell asleep...
Next thing I know, I'm lost in the middle of the highway, trying to figure out where I'm supposed to be...where Ron went. I find a neighborhood, full of friendly people...there was a good sense coming from all of them--and I had a feeling Ron was somewhere nearby.
Very odd. Try to analyze that.
1/17/2003 10:10:00 PM
Well, the AEBoards problem has been resolved, more or less.
What amuses me the most is that I had closed the topic that had my opinion in it--and somebody else went and opened it. Then Kev went and closed it again. Heh, I closed it for a REASON. Oy...
Long day at work ahead of me. If I don't show up tonight on AIM, there's always tomorrow. Vacation time is beautiful.
1/17/2003 09:16:00 AM
1.16.2003
Today's Mood
Still royally POed and getting worse.
*angrily* Do you know what happened last night? I was forced to get off of AIM, because Kev was caught up in sending every person he knew to talk to me about being a Mod again. Noble gesture, but do you know what--that sways me more in the way of NOT being one than in the other way. Why? Because if I agree, it will be because I gave in, not because I consciencously decided to.
The method he's using is close to harassment. And the very people I brought to the AEMBs are the same people he's "using against me."
Now, what I'm trying to do is NOT become another Jenna/James/whoever. But Kev needs to consider my feelings in this matter. I'm not saying he should agree with my position so much as agree that I have a right to decide what I do with my life. Right now, I've got some problems going on, and he's not helping.
1/16/2003 08:33:00 AM
1.15.2003
Bad Day
It's funny. I feel lots better for finally shoving my secret off of my chest. Which leaves me free to feel more alive about my feelings.
Today's Mood:
Royally P.O'ed.
Let's see...we have the AE Boards incident.
We have one of my favorite servers leaving--her last day was today.
I lost $30 today at work...my nice, fat tip I got from my regs covered part of that, so I only had to pay $20, but STILL...I can't afford to lose money, not right now.
My Drawing III class--the one I looked forward to, the one that I completely rearranged my entire schedule to fit it it...was cancelled. They stuck me into a Painting I class. Why did I agree? To save face, I know. I'll give it one week, but if I don't like it...heh, right. I'm too busy making sure I have no "W"s on my college record to let personal feelings get in the way. Maybe that's good, I dunno.
My parents approached me about paying rent. They said $100. I begged for $50. They agreed. I can't even pay that now...;_; Well, I can, but there's going to be a lot of personal sacrifices going on. Oy.
Bad day.
1/15/2003 10:05:00 PM
1.14.2003
Words of Comfort
"I'm really sorry, and I literally feel your pain. I know how it feels.
You are very brave." ~genkai
"Good luck to you. And i'm so sorry this had to happen to you." ~T.N.
"You're very brave to have put up with all this. Good luck, and I hope things pick up for you soon." ~Solo
"On a very Christian note: God doesn't stop bad things happening all the time, but he makes the best out of any situation, and can make you, and others, stronger in faith (among other things) by helping you pull through a bad situation. I think you could seriously help others, having been through the experience yourself." ~Deus
"...I do indeed feel sorry about this." ~DK
"Ginny, I love you to death. Mmkay?" ~Sara
"You just have to keep strong." ~Kenji
"Getting this secret off your shoulders is definitely a great step in coming to terms with what happened and learning to deal with it." ~~CWB
"At the very least, I hope that you feel you can talk to me or anyone else here about things like this....I'm always willing to listen." ~James
"*hands [Ginny] Auron Plushie*" ~Juu
I love you all so much.
1/14/2003 10:47:00 PM
I just want to thank everyone that's been really supportive of me for sharing my dark secret on OB. It's helped a LOT.
1/14/2003 05:43:00 PM
For all OBers, don't forget to vote on the OtakuBoards awards!
1/14/2003 09:06:00 AM
(just one last edit for my template)
1/14/2003 08:34:00 AM
And in other news, my blogspot, both archives and posting, seem to be working well. I wonder what's going on...oO;
1/14/2003 08:33:00 AM
OK, some new links. I have Kev's blog added on.
Gargoyles has been added in a new link section--Great TV shows or something like that. I'm thinking about adding other great shows in the future--we'll see.
Now, as the for the PG-13 link--NOTE THE NOTE. It is raunchy to an extent (cursing, some sexual innuendo, rude gestures), so be careful. On the good side, it has the Backstreet Boys celebrating large people. My friend DJ loved it, as did I. What I'm trying to say is, this is not meant to be offensive to anyone, so if you think it will be, don't go.
You're still gonna need good sound and a decent video card, regardless. Actually you need that for all the "Multimedia Fun" links.
Love you all!
1/14/2003 08:32:00 AM
1.13.2003
The 13th!
And who says Friday the 13ths are bad?
*is pulled to one side, someone whispers frantically in her ear*
O.
Oops. ^^;
Well, it was a 13th, anyway. And not a bad one, either.
Rondoism
Sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Heh, turns out Rondo was sick while he was on vacation. (And I swear, if that happens to me, I shall be quite unhappy.) And he brought it home. And he looks awful. And he prolly has what everyone else has. (Not me, though--I've got something different from everyone else, so THERE (well, Shaun does too, but that's different :p)).
The irony of it all was when he came out and said that he wasn't like all the wussy whiny babies...then spent the rest of the shift bellyaching. *laughs kindly* Well, not too much, but...
There was the moment he proudly mentioned his very first purchase of CDs (only last week)--and was promptly laughed out of the passout. XD
Then there was the moment when he thought someone had brought him flowers (they were actually for a co-worker). He looked so painfully (and comically) heartbroken--that was HILARIOUS!
The kicker was when he learned he had to let me go early so I could get to class.
"Why? What classes you taking?"
"Art ones."
"Why do you need art classes?!"
"Heh, this will be a good semester."
"Oh yeah, why?"
"I get to draw NAKED people!"
Ron looks in bemused wonder at me, popeyed. "REALly?"
I grin widely. "YUP!"
"You will, ah, let me know when you draw the babes, right? You know, just kinda..."
I groan. "I'm more interested in the guys, myself."
More popeyes. Little GinGin's growing up.
"Fine then--hurry up and get outta here!" he hollers.
And every five minutes, it was, "Get outta here already! I don't want to be the one to get blamed when you show up late! Go--GET!"
Oh, BTW, yes, I do get my vacation next week, Ron willing--but under protest. He called me a big butthead, blew a raspberry, and conceded that failure to give me my vacation will incite an unwelcome gesture in me toward my customers (layman terms: I'll go postal).
As far as art class goes, Randall remembered me. Barry never showed up. ;_; I ran all the way to college to be on time for Barry...and he didn't show up. *looks worried* I hope he's there Weds.
I only have to go to class once next week. This is shaping up pretty nice! :D
Ah yes, BTW, I will only be able to be on AIM on Tues, Thurs, Fri, Sat, and Sun. Mons and Weds I have class pretty late. Plus my comic. Which is coming along nicely! No matter how cute. *glares at Shaun, and laughs* My silly goober! ;)
1/13/2003 07:12:00 PM
1.12.2003
Which Digimon 02 character are you?
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*wails* I dun WANNA be Davis!!! I'm not a great leader at all, but I do try my best and have a relatively good heart...
1/12/2003 05:24:00 PM
Random thoughts about God and science
You know, it amuses me (in a light hearted sense) to no end when a science person starts to ask me questions about why I believe in a God that you can't see and can't hear. "How can you know He exists, and that what He says is right?"
Heh, a good example of this is electricity. Go stick a finger in a light socket. I'll wait.
You won't do it, will you? And why? Because you know there's a deadly force (aka electricity) running around in there, and if you stick your finger in the socket, you will be fried.
But how do you know it exists, if you can't see it, hmm?
"Oh, well, the learnéd scientists tell us all about that--see, they say it's (insert long drawn out explanation)."
What makes me laugh in a kind hearted way is that the scientists are taking their theories, electrons and so on, on FAITH. And we Christians believe in our God with FAITH. Not directed toward the same goal, granted, but definitely the same thing.
What I like to say is that science explains how God does stuff. (All save monkey to human evolution--THAT I do not accept as true. So there. :p)
1/12/2003 12:18:00 PM
IT'S SNOWING!!!! OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!
You gotta understand--for someone who only sees this stuff once or twice a year, this a BIG DEAL!
It's so pretty....
Check out the huge snowflake that smacked into my camera the moment I took the photo.
Today at church, Pastor Hadley talked about the difference between justice and mercy. How we all deserve justice...how He's ready to give us mercy. How He won't break the bruised reed.
The Pastor also said that mercy is giving up the right to take revenge on someone that's hurt you. Hard for me...
And God told me this morning that He won't leave me or forsake me. He won't stomp on me or give up on me when I'm down.
"But," He added, and I cringed, for I knew something was coming, "but you need to show others that, in the way I'm showing you that. It's selfish to keep it all to yourself, you know."
I did know. So I got some work to do.
1/12/2003 11:51:00 AM
And again :D
Oops, it DOES matter! Silly me!
1/12/2003 09:50:00 AM
Sara again
No underscore? I thought it still takes me to the same place, regardless?
1/12/2003 09:49:00 AM
Des
I know exactly what you mean, about not minding staying in the house all the time. I can't say that it's right or wrong, but I do enjoy it for the most part. There's just those times when I wish I could be with other people...
I need to catch up with you on AIM.
Josh
I want to talk to you on AIM, too. I keep reading your golpher story over and over again, and I just want to talk to someone who understands what I'm feeling.
Sara
I just want to plain talk to you.
Flora
Where'd you run off to?
Deus
Thanks for reading, buddy. And as for what Sara wrote, it came from Mark Shultz (sp?). "Back in His Arms Again." Beautiful song, you should listen to it.
Hyper
My Auron, do you hear me? MINE, MINE! (heh)
Sir Zeh, DeathKnight, and all you other peoples I talked to on that weird AIM chat last night
Heh, any word yet on kuja's reaction?
I've been blackmailed...framed even! Yes, that's it--FRAMED.
Ginny
Go to church already. Hang in there--make it past this week and you are on vacation (Ron willing). Your comic is coming along nicely, so stop worrying already, heh!
Anybody I missed?
Sorry if I did--in a rush to get ready for church. I will talk to you later on AIM--all 20+ of you! :D
1/12/2003 09:47:00 AM
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